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[shortforever]

WHO: Thistle (plus any visitors)
WHERE: Thistle barn and meadow
WHEN: Late Day 7 + Day 8

[Post-game thoughts, coin tosses, and anything else they might need.]

Comments

[literal_trainwreck]

Either way.

[doesn't even flick water back. this is relaxation time damn it]

[survivaltricks]

We can think about it later.

[oozing back into the water himself]

. . . I want to soak until I'm red like a boiled lobster.

[literal_trainwreck]

I may well spend the night in here.

[survivaltricks]

Just don't drown when you fall asleep.

[literal_trainwreck]

[dark chuckle]

If I actually manage to fall asleep tonight, a little drowning would be worth it.

[survivaltricks]

For you, maybe. Think about how hard it'd be on us to lug your heavy body around.

[literal_trainwreck]

Maybe for you. Odin would have my corpse disposed of in no time.

[survivaltricks]

I hope he feeds it to a gator dog.

[literal_trainwreck]

That's the circle of life.

[closing his eyes and sinking a little deeper]

[survivaltricks]

[it's impolite to roughhouse in a public bath but man does he want to dunk Loki underwater so badly right now]

[BUT NO. HE WILL BEHAVE]

. . . you look so happy. . .

[literal_trainwreck]

I'm completely exhausted.

[survivaltricks]

[just makes a noise of understanding and agreement, and falls silent for a few long, peaceful moments]

[time to ruin it!]

. . . hey.

Can I ask you something?

[literal_trainwreck]

[a tired sigh]

Go ahead.

[survivaltricks]

When you answered that question about. . . judging someone for taking their own life, you spaced out a bit.

[. . .]

What did you see?

[literal_trainwreck]

[an immediate note of defensiveness]

I saw a cliff and felt the temptation to go over the edge.

I didn't take the step.

1/2

[survivaltricks]

[. . . oh. . .]

[. . .]

[survivaltricks]

[carefully, noting that defensiveness]

. . . what held you back?

[literal_trainwreck]

[...]



I don't know. I wasn't thinking rationally.

[survivaltricks]

[ffffrowns]

Do you say that because you think you should have?

[stepped forward, he means]

[literal_trainwreck]

That's not what I meant. "Should" or "shouldn't" didn't even play into it.

[survivaltricks]

[something inside relaxes]

Then. . . what was going through your mind at the time?

[literal_trainwreck]

[unconsciously raising his hand to his neck]

...The air above was suffocating. The choice presented was a slow and painful death or a quick and easy one. What does it even matter what I was thinking?

[survivaltricks]

Ah. . . after what you said, I thought—

[it was more of a choice of taking the step towards death. . . or not]

[he shakes his head]

Either way, I suppose to matters to me. But it's not something you have to share, if you don't want to.

[literal_trainwreck]

[dropping his hand back into the water]

If I jump it's a "definite" and if I stay it's a "maybe," is that what I should say? Maybe the weight will lift if I back off from the edge. Maybe I can still be saved. That's what you want to hear, isn't it? "Save me, Lupin."

[survivaltricks]

[this time, he isn't taken aback by the implication, but his expression does furrow]

That's not— no. That's not why I was asking.

Why do you always think it's about me wanting to save you?

[it's probably the obvious guilt that he couldn't]