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[wooliefrand]

WHO: SHEEP
WHERE: ALL OVER
WHEN: AFTERNOON-EVENING 103

[JUST A MINGLE BEFORE TRAUMA GAMES START COMING AND KEEP ON COMING

CARRY ON]

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[wants_the_phd]

Do you?

[dadinside]

[quietly averts his gaze, which probably says enough.]

[wants_the_phd]

I wish I were better at it.

Every time I've killed someone it's been messy and desperate, for all parties.

Maybe if I were more competent, I wouldn't be so scared all the time.

[dadinside]

Do you want to kill?

[wants_the_phd]

Constantly.



I don't though, obviously. But the desire is there.

[dadinside]

Why do you do it?

[wants_the_phd]

[She thinks about that for a moment, but ultimately just shrugs.]

I'm just an angry kind of person?


I dunno. Sometimes the opportunity to get ahead just presents itself. It's only natural to try and take advantage when you can. Sometimes it's me doing it to others, sometimes it's others doing it to me.

The world is just a competitive place. That's all.


Why do you do it?

[dadinside]

[competitive and cruel.

he pauses for a moment, Ogino asked him the same thing once but he didn't respond to it. mostly because his response would've revealed the inner conflict.]

Because of my father.

[wants_the_phd]

How so?

[dadinside]

... It's the only thing he taught me. The only reason I exist. I'm the perfect assassin. A puppet.

[wants_the_phd]

... How do you feel about that?

[dadinside]

He's right.

[his father made him who he is, and he's alive because of it. shitty upbringing or not.]

But I also believe that I can change. I decided I'm leaving the organization.

[wants_the_phd]

What I meant was, do you like being an assassin? Does it bring you personal satisfaction?

[dadinside]

No.

[wants_the_phd]

Then it's good you're going to find your own path.

What's the point of being alive if you're not doing the things that make you happy?

[dadinside]

Never had a choice before.

[not until he met Acheron. and Miri.]

[wants_the_phd]

So? What will you choose to do?

[dadinside]

Leave. We already came up with a plan before being brought here.

[wants_the_phd]

And then what?

[dadinside]

Be a real family.

[wants_the_phd]

What does a real family do?

...Have I asked you this before? I feel like I might have.

[dadinside]

[shakes his head- she asked what it meant to be alive.

but for this question... he's not sure.]

Still figuring that out. I think it's the same stuff we've been doing. Only this time we don't have to keep it a secret.

[wants_the_phd]

What stuff are you doing?

And what's the appeal?

[dadinside]

Taking care of Miri is a lot of work. Even with daycare, there are still activities and homework.

Miri deserves to have a good life. I want to be a part of it because I like having her around.

[wants_the_phd]

[wow...]

Raising humans is a lot of effort, huh? Do they all get that kind of personalized attention?

It's hard for me to imagine.