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[noarchitact]

WHO: You, you, & you.
WHERE: the Pasture!
WHEN: Day 91

[ 🐑 baaa. ]

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[spinebuddyandme]

Y...es...?

[audacity]

[ truly unsure for a second if he's going to laugh or cry at how absurd that is. breathes out, still unsteady ]

I want to believe you're right. Or — I don't know. I trust you, all of you, but it's hard to...no.

[ may as well just admit it ]

I'm afraid. That's what it is.

[spinebuddyandme]

[ furrows his brow, a little uncertain ]

Afraid...of trusting us?

[audacity]

Um. That you're wrong. That it will all go bad. I told you, my track record sucks. Like. Half-bloods don't make it to seventeen without outliving a lot of people. I couldn't count them all if I tried.

[spinebuddyandme]

... I can't promise you that nothing bad will happen. That's...the risk.

[ Has definitely expected to die a couple of times ]

The only thing I can promise is to fight as hard to protect myself as I'll fight for you.

[audacity]

Yeah, I know. The risk is pretty much unavoidable.

[ ok one last shuddering breath and then he has to try to pull himself together ]

But, um. That is a pretty good promise.

[spinebuddyandme]

[ Gives his shoulder a reassuring squeeze ]

I think we'll have pretty good odds anyway. Cheating death is practically a hobby for everyone on Lily. Lethe even pulls it off while he's raising a family and a few dozen monsters.

That dead fish isn't gonna know what hit her.

[audacity]

I mean, it doesn't have to be ev...it is going to be everyone who wants to help, yeah.

[ sighs, drops his hands. wonders if he should mention the part where meris keeps making ominous noises about what'd happen to him with her gone.

...nah. ]

I'm worried about Charon's deal too. I know it's not as...much as mine, but I don't think her having access to his head is safe either.

[spinebuddyandme]

Agreed. Scarab's never picked up anything, y'know, concerning when he scans Charon, but I still don't really like it. Especially if you hate her this much.

... What's she been like with you anyway?

[audacity]

[ opens mouth

closes mouth

shrugs ]

...fine?

[ #nailedit ]

[spinebuddyandme]

"Fine" is what you're gonna go with after melting down about how dangerous you think it's gonna be for us?

[audacity]

[ WINCES ]

Okay, yeah, that was stupid.

[spinebuddyandme]

What's she really been doing? Is she hurting you?

[audacity]

[ hesitates, then ]

Can we go back to Lily first? I'll...tell you some more about it there. Not everything, but that's just because I've promised the others to talk about it too. Maybe we can talk about it as a group or something, later.

[spinebuddyandme]

[ Frown deepens. Just how much shit have the rotten fish sticks been up to? ]

'course we can. However you wanna talk about it is fine.

[audacity]

[ IT'S PROBABLY FINE ]

Yeah, let's go back.

[ and it's not a long walk, at least ]

[spinebuddyandme]

[ 8(

falls into step with him though ]

You wanna use the war room? The pillow floor is pretty good for venting.

[audacity]

Actually? Yeah, that's a great idea.

[spinebuddyandme]

I known to have some pretty good ones.

[audacity]

I think you mean plenty of great ones.

[ andddd letting them both back into lily, heading over to the war room ]

[spinebuddyandme]

[ Wades into the pillow pit, looking for the squishiest place to sit ]

Yeah, you're right. I gotta give myself more credit.

[audacity]

You seriously do.

[ there are so many squishy pillows, and also now a gigantic plush shark from the recent stories ritual. he opts to get settled near that, leaning his weight against it.

and then, after a pause, ]

Hurting me isn't actually what she wants. Like, she could've done without a pact or anything. It's mostly kind of...talking?

[spinebuddyandme]

Talking, huh? About what?

[audacity]

My day, if you can believe it. She feeds on experiences, right? The newer the better.

[spinebuddyandme]

New like, recent? Or new like something she's never seen or you've never done?