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[noarchitact]

WHO: You, you, & you.
WHERE: the Pasture!
WHEN: Day 91

[ 🐑 baaa. ]

Comments

[audacity]

That is such a low blow!

[ but doesn't sound like, mad about it. then adds, with enough grace to look abashed, ]

She found one of my nightmares once. Of — don't freak out.

[spinebuddyandme]

It's a fair blow!

[ There's a brief war on his face as he fights the immediate reaction to get angry—no way any good can come from a malicious god finding nightmares.

Takes a deep breath once his expression evens out again ]

I promise not to.

[audacity]

[ breathes oUT like, ]

She found a Tartarus nightmare and decided to ask me about it, with a full 360 experience. But that only happened once.

1/2

[spinebuddyandme]

2/2

[spinebuddyandme]

[ Takes a shaky breath, color draining from his face as the weight of that sinks in ]

"Only" once, like that's no big deal? I've seen what Tartarus is, ese.

Re: 2/2

[audacity]

Still wish you hadn't.

[ not meeting his eyes about it tho ]

It was for like, a minute. And I was asking for it. I mean that literally — I told her to prove she could really do anything to me.

Re: 2/2

[spinebuddyandme]

You didn't ask for her to dig out one of the worst things she could find.

Re: 2/2

[audacity]

...so like. It's been better to stick to talking, obviously.

[ let's just move right along ]

[spinebuddyandme]

...I get it, but I'm sorry you've been dealing with this alone.

[audacity]

Dude, don't you apologize. I signed myself up for this. I didn't say anything because I didn't want you guys having to stress about it. There's enough on your plates like, all the time.

[spinebuddyandme]

I get that too. There's stuff I don't talk about because we've all got it so hard already, but none of it's actively hurting me. It sucks even more knowing you've been letting her fuck with you for us.

No one on Lily wants that.

[audacity]

I know you don't. You've all been telling me that, and I believe you.

[ sinks into the shark plush as he considers how to say the next part ]

I know it's messed up. But it kinda felt good that there's been one thing I could protect you all from.

[spinebuddyandme]

[ rubs at his face so he can hide the sadness that creeps in around his eyes and mouth at that admission, turning towards him with a weary look after a moment ]



I'm real touched we mean that much to you, but I'm glad you're admitting it to us now.

[audacity]

Of course you do. I love you guys.

[ with a little glimmer of humor, ]

Don't think I had much of a choice in that. None of you have been willing to let it go this whole time. Lethe was probably going to corner me, again, if I didn't say something soon.

[spinebuddyandme]

Honestly, I'm surprised he hasn't already. I bet being asleep is the only thing stopping him.

[audacity]

[ shakes his head with a faint smile ]

I asked him for some time, when we talked about it. I promised I'd give him — all of you — the details of what I agreed to. And according to Aides, he's been trying not to pressure me about it.

[spinebuddyandme]

[ laughs softly, just once ]

That does sound like him. I bet he's been coming up with plans and back-up plans for how to get rid of her this whole time.

[audacity]

A bullet-pointed list. "Ways To Kill A Fish."

[spinebuddyandme]

Personally, I'm partial to a good old fashioned fish fry.

[audacity]

[ breathes out a slight laugh ]

Yeah, maybe.

[spinebuddyandme]

Just a thought. It'll be your call in the end.

[ He assumes, anyway ]

[audacity]

[ if it works if it's possible if meris is wrong about his existence being too tied to hers now if letting lily try isn't the worst idea,,, too many ifs ]

I'll be grateful whatever it is. Scratch that, I'm grateful now.

[spinebuddyandme]

I know. I'm pretty grateful too, if we're being honest. We really lucked out with Lily. I'd be a lot more worried without them for back-up.

[audacity]

Not too late to back out, for the record.

[spinebuddyandme]

Not happening, ese.