lilium candidum

[endsjustified]

WHO: lily + visitors if any??
WHERE: lily
WHEN: day 56

[anyone who tried to visit lily night 54 or through day 55 might have noticed there was not really much response and most of the team seemed to be away from home! whoopsie

on day 56 people start coming back or otherwise rousing from their post-kidnapping/trauma/werewolfing fugue states though. what up]

Comments

Re: [game talk]

[spinebuddyandme]

Oye, I'm not trying to catch you in some weird rule exception. I just want to make sure we understand as much of your opinion as we can. Some of us feel differently when the whole team's at risk compared to only risking our own skin.

If it's all the same to you, that's still important to know.

Re: [game talk]

[papartner]

I know, I know. If I need to take the brunt of something, it's fine. I'd like to avoid it if I can, whether it's all of us, or just me.

Re: [game talk]

[spinebuddyandme]

Okay. ...That really sounds like what I'd expect most of us to say. Like we all want the same thing, but we can't agree on where the line between "needing to take it" and "avoiding it" is. I'm worried we could end up in the same rut if we don't change the way we're thinking about it.

I...really don't want to hit ourselves again at all. I don't want to hit anyone in these things, but I— I don't want to decide we need to hurt any of us again. Not like it's some...responsibility, y'know? I want us to matter too.

Re: [game talk]

[papartner]

We do matter, okay? You matter, dude. We don't deserve to get kicked around, least of all by ourselves. That's not wrong.

Look - if I had my choice, we'd never be a choice. I know that's not really an option sometimes, but I don't want anyone in this barn to get hurt if we can avoid it.

Re: [game talk]

[spinebuddyandme]

[ holds up his hands in a placating gesture ]

Oye, oye, if I thought it was wrong then why would I be saying I want us to matter? I don't think anyone believes we deserve it, but we're not great at deciding we deserve to be protected. Aside from you...and probably Demeter.

Re: [game talk]

[papartner]

I'm not pissed or anything. Just... the more I think about it the more annoyed I get. Knowing that this was happening.

Re: [game talk]

[spinebuddyandme]

Mm... I guess I'd be upset too if I were just finding out about it now.

Re: [game talk]

[papartner]

That, and knowing some of this was self-inflicted. Everyone said shit was bad, but.

Re: [game talk]

[spinebuddyandme]

I know we could've tried harder to explain, but it's really hard to understand until you've been through it.

Re: [game talk]

[papartner]

It's fine. Don't think any amount of explaining would have prepared me for it.

Re: [game talk]

[spinebuddyandme]

Probably not. Especially if you were used to a peaceful life.

Uh, before you got your job anyway.

Re: [game talk]

[papartner]

Look, that whole...

[ gestures???? transformation gestures?? idk ]

No! Peaceful or not, no.