here there be mingies.

[crittersheep]

WHO: you and whoever isn't passed tf out
WHERE: e'rywhere
WHEN: Day 55 morning through evening

[ Well. Even the pasture deserves a low-key day sometime. Some of you are passed out in a cuddle pile. Others are doing a bake-a-thon because Red said so. And some others are coming off that bonesaw enrichment high. You know how it is

How are you today, though? Are you chilling out? Admiring that new barrier and cool fence? Running yourselves ragged checking on people? what is up. ]

Comments

[electricflock]

Aaaaall of them? Will ruin the rest of your day.

[mykidisthebest]

It wouldn't! I'm used to all kinds of crazy things.

[electricflock]

Aren't really crazy things, are mostly sad things.

[mykidisthebest]

I'm used to all kinds of sad things, too.

But only if you feel like talking about them. No pressure.

[electricflock]

...Is okay if they're things that can't be fixed?

[mykidisthebest]

...Yeah. Not everything can be fixed, as frustrating as that is. There's a lot of that here and back home.

[electricflock]

Yeah… and can’t fix things here and at home at same time. Can’t look after both flocks.

[mykidisthebest]

You can't be everywhere at once. It's hard, but you can't expect it of yourself, either.

[electricflock]

Still feels bad though. Are trapped here, so decision isn't mine to make anyways... but still feels like wanting to support one group means abandoning other when is no way to care for both.

[mykidisthebest]

You aren't abandoning anyone. I know that doesn't stop it from feeling that way--I'm homesick every day. And there's a lot I still have to do back home, so I understand feeling impatient about it.

[pauses preening to just hug him]

I'm sorry. Like you said, there's no fix for it. It just feels bad.

[electricflock]

[hugs back, curling up a little]

It's bad. And when things like yesterday happens, is worse.

[mykidisthebest]

[curls up around him a bit]

Because you feel helpless?

[electricflock]

Feel scared.

[mykidisthebest]

It'll be okay. Maybe not right now. But eventually.

[electricflock]

[presses his face into lethe's shoulder]

Have to keep telling ourselves that. We're all still trying.

[mykidisthebest]

[rubs small circles on his back]

Yeah. This isn't...advice, exactly. But it's okay if there are some days you can't get out of bed, or cry until you're exhausted, or drink yourself silly. There's nothing wrong with falling apart for a little while if you need to. Just make sure you can put yourself together again once you get it out of your system.

[electricflock]

[revs up a small, stuttering sort of purr]

Is... good reminder. I'm doing good at keeping myself together, have... This is letting go some. Being clingy and sad. Haven't done lot of that on anyone.

[mykidisthebest]

[keeps doing the circles, then '^']

It's hard to let go when you're used to keeping it together. But, it would be bad to have to burst out at the wrong time. Better to let it out now, hmm?

[electricflock]

[nods...]

Um... thanks for this.

[mykidisthebest]

[shakes his head a little]

You're welcome. I feel like I should be the one thanking you. I...uh, don't like being alone, so it puts me at ease to be able to spend time with you.

[electricflock]

I don't like being alone either. ...Yesterday, I left the door open when I took bath so I could still hear flockmates. So being with you is good for me too.

[mykidisthebest]

[chuckles]

That's not a bad idea. I'd do that too if we didn't have a girl in the barn.