sheep_game | BARTENDER

Entry tags:

BARTENDER - CLOVER

WHO: CLOVER + CUSTOMERS
WHERE: CLOVER BARN
WHEN: BARTENDER GAME

[ Your barn has a new???? (temporary???) addition! One of the outside walls now has a cabinet of various drinks, all of which sits behind what appears to be an L-shaped bar counter, complete with a sink, ice box, and glass cabinet on the inner side, and stools for customers(?) on the outer side.

Posted on the wall is a recipe book, and above it, a big chalkboard listing the various drinks from said recipe book.

Tied to the drinks cabinet are a number of ribbons in your barn's color. Wonder what those are for. ]

OOC RULES | RECIPE BOOK | MAIN GAME POST

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

I know. I try.

I just... [have a lot of hangups, okay]

I get it. It's not an easy thing to do.

When I saw her with those other kids, I—

She never smiled like that for me, ever, Zenith. I—wanted her to love me so much, and—

You didn't do anything wrong, and you deserved better than her. That woman barely counts as a mother, let alone a person.

Maybe, but...

Do I really deserve better? Mother didn't want me and mama and sensei died. What if something happens to you guys because of me?

If I asked you the same question, what's the response you'd give me?

That you deserve better.

Exactly.

[she sighs]

I just don't want to be the reason you guys get hurt. I know I'm a mess and you guys are always dealing with whatever's happened and I already feel bad about it but what if it—means you get hurt? Like in a ritual or something...

You're going to cause more harm if you convince yourself that you're a mess and incapable of doing anything without hurting other people. At that point it becomes a self-defeating prophecy.