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[psynchroneyes]

WHO: CLOVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and visitors)
WHERE: the clover pad
WHEN: Day 102

it's been a week so new day new us

Comments

[aididitmyway]

Cygnus...

She knows she was murdered. She showed up here covered in blood and had a scar where she was stabbed. It's mama. She loved us more than anything else, she'd be happy to just see you.

[aiwillneversmile]

Lyra . . . [sighs, shaking his head] It's different for me. I can't face her.

[aididitmyway]

Because of the promise? Even if she wouldn't care?

... Or would just seeing her making you have an attack?

[aiwillneversmile]

[an unkind half-laugh]

My panic attacks don't work like that. And I didn't hide them well enough, it seems. —No, all the lies I've told and people I've hurt . . . I'm not as bad as our father, but I don't feel good about any of it. She certainly didn't want this for me, either.

[aididitmyway]

No, you didn't. I always knew about them... Miyako and I always just tried to give you space, though.

[She shakes her head]

Maybe not, no, but she'd just be happy that you're alive... and that we're still together. Not alone, like she was.

[aiwillneversmile]

Thanks . . . And I think they're over as long as you're, you know, okay.

. . . Yeah, it really would be that simple for her, huh.

[aididitmyway]

... I can't really guarantee being okay.

But she was just... so happy that she had a chance to just love us again.

[aiwillneversmile]

I know. But Clover already knows what to expect from us, so it's not like there's anything you or I could do about it.

[quiet for a beat, big mom feels, but sighing eventually]

. . . I'll see her. If we ever get the chance. Okay?

[aididitmyway]

[nods... before reaching up to brush some of his hair out of his eyes for a moment]

We'll take it one step at a time.

[aiwillneversmile]

[ducks his head along with that motion, yes give affection thanks]

Did you tell her about your past life?

[aididitmyway]

[well ok, she'll just stroke his hair for a bit then]

No, I didn't have a chance.

[aiwillneversmile]

[sometimes cygnus also needs headpats]

Did you want to . . . ?

[aididitmyway]

I kinda did, because I want to be honest with her.

But the right time never happened, since she wasn't here all that long and there was just a lot to get used to.

[aiwillneversmile]

She'd probably take it the best out of anyone back home. I'm still waiting for Akane to suddenly come after me about Gorou. She has more than enough pieces to put it together.

[aididitmyway]

Don't worry, I bet she's totally coming for you. It'll just be when you least expect it.

[aiwillneversmile]

. . . Why does it sound like you're rooting for her when I'm your brother?

[aididitmyway]

Can't I do both?

[aiwillneversmile]

No, but especially not with Akane.

[aididitmyway]

Why not?

[aiwillneversmile]

Because she's scary. She's the scariest person I know.

[aididitmyway]

She's not all that scary to me...

[aiwillneversmile]

. . . Well, good. Hope it stays that way for you.

[aididitmyway]

She's only ever really helped me.

I cornered dad in the cemetery, did you know that? She definitely pulled me away before things could get sketchy, if they were gonna get sketchy.

[aiwillneversmile]

Yeah, Akane told me about it. And you didn't corner him. He cornered you. And it was going to get sketchy. It was a big oversight . . .

[aididitmyway]

It was.

But... thankfully Akane was there to intervene. I was getting some seriously bad vibes.