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[noarchitact]

WHO: You, you, & you.
WHERE: the Pasture!
WHEN: Day 91

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[heavyliesthecrown]

I was raised very elegantly, so naturally I am always quite mature. [lol]

[He thinks for a moment, though.]

Do you mean in regard to my own feelings though? [He lifts a finger up to his chin in thought.]

I suppose that... if he ever shows a sign of weakness, I shall pounce upon it like a predator upon prey faster than he can blink. If I felt that he did or could have romantic feelings for me, I mean.

[He hasn't given entirely up. Though he does respect his decision and autonomy. He does not wish to make him uncomfortable.]

That said, there is nothing that I can do other than respect how he feels, and spend time together normally, as I do with others? Truthfully, my parents do likely have someone in mind for me back home already. Arranged marriages are not unheard of, particularly for those of us within the aristocracy. Moreover, it is not even legal for two individuals of the same gender to wed back home. I doubt that my parents would have approved.

[He heaves a small sigh.]

There is someone else here who greatly confuses my emotions and leaves me at a loss from time to time. But they are such an odd individual, that I honestly cannot tell if they are simply teasing me, or if they are intending to come across as though they might... like me. And due to who they are, I feel that much more confused myself.

. . . So perhaps I am no expert on love. I am certainly a failed example of it here in the pasture, despite being on Bluebell. But no one ever said that love is easy, and I suppose that unrequited love has always been a theme throughout history.

And so, I cannot imagine what theDoki Doki Demon might request of you. Or even if immortality is something that one can ask for. Perhaps there is a different solution? I have no idea really. But, at the very least, it does not hurt to ask, does it? If you desire to, then I can attempt to summon her, since I was already debating doing so to begin with. Though truly my own reasons are so much more silly in comparison.

[wants_the_phd]

[this is all so fascinating...]

What are you gonna ask of her?

[heavyliesthecrown]

I cannot say. You will just laugh.

[wants_the_phd]

Try me.

[heavyliesthecrown]

[ . . . . . . . . ]

I asked Miss Daisy if she had a longer-lasting spell for ears and a tail. She said no, but that I could probably ask the Doki Doki Demon for something like that.

[wants_the_phd]

Well, shit. If Doki-Doki can give you extra body parts, I want some too.

[heavyliesthecrown]

. . . Like what?

[wants_the_phd]

Wings! Wings, for sure!

This place has let me sample what it feels like to fly. I'd love to do it any time I wanted, under my own power. It felt really good!

If having ears and a tail is what feels good for you, then you should do it!

[heavyliesthecrown]

Oh- I could certainly see how wings would be quite fun. Flying is exciting, so I do not blame you for that at all. I have only ever done it upon a broom which was enchanted. But It was very enjoyable.

[wants_the_phd]

If you wind up summoning Doki Doki, can I come?

[heavyliesthecrown]

If I end up summoning her, I think in part it would be for your own sake, so naturally. Besides, it sounds like something like this may be better sooner rather than later.

[wants_the_phd]

Well, I'm exploring the possibility of making a prosthetic body I can put my soul in. Something made of limbus wouldn't be enough, since a duplicate of this failing body will probably still be failing. But Angel Devil has a lot of experience with bioengineering, and Aides has volunteered to try to help us build some of the necessary technology.

I don't know if it's going to work, though, or if we'll be able to make it in time. It's going to be really complicated. So it's good to have backup plans. I don't know which solution is going to be the one that works, if any.

[heavyliesthecrown]

Between everything, I hope something can be found.

[ . . . ]

Though I was thinking. You may not be interested in this, since I know you are rather wary of others having any control over you. But if you wanted to feel something... perhaps similar to love, I could do that? It would not be true. But when it was cast upon me once, I recall how I felt head over heels.

1/2

[wants_the_phd]

[She thinks about that seriously.]

[wants_the_phd]

You know what? Sure.

I'm always interested in learning something new, and what better way to find out than to experience it firsthand? Let's do it.

[heavyliesthecrown]

Would you like to do it now then, or at a later convenience? Either way, I shall only have it last for a minute or two. Enough so that you may feel the effects. I have no desire to truly play with your emotions.