I should have been handling things better here, and yet all I've managed is a complete lack of understanding and inability to communicate anything I've found myself incapable of comprehending.

... You've only been trying to help in every way you can, and I've ended up hurting you because of the dread I feel of not being heard, and of my own expectations of myself- you, the only person who has bothered to ask after me. I don't deserve your forgiveness for my behavior, but I'll ask for it all the same.

It doesn't have to be now, but I hope you'll want to sometime.